I am extremely fortunate. I have many blessings in my life that I sometimes take for granted. I have been so caught up lately in the less-than-ideal way things have been going for me that I forget how much I have to be thankful for.
I have a job. I have a job at a place that treats their employees like gold. I am playing the flute often, and my playing has reached a level at which I feel confident that I will win jobs. I have auditions coming up. I am healthy. I am in a loving committed relationship with my ideal man. Said man just got an awesome job in the field he wants to be working in.
So it shouldn’t matter too much that his said job is on the other side of the country, or that I no longer feel intrinsically happy about my position, or that I miss my family so horribly much, or that I have no close friends here, or the list goes on and on…
But, as hard as I try to remain positive and hopeful, next week will be very challenging for me. He will be gone, and I will be here, alone. Pending everything goes as planned, I will try and move out there with him in a couple months. However, that is very pending, and there is a solid chance that we might only get to see one another every once in awhile for an extended period.
I’ve done this before, and it wouldn’t be so hard on me if I had a network here. But I do not. This will be a great chance to better myself, physically and mentally, but only if I can tread water at the same time.
So there’s that.
